-001 - the surtones - cecilia ann

-002 - sigma - find me (ft. birdy)

2017/12/29: daughter - youth

o número 40 começou a correr e foi abrandando até ao meu colapso.

o meu 2017 foi isto.
já não me lembrava de estar tão viciado numa música.
de ouvi-la dias, semanas. de a gritar, berrar, sussurar, chorar. de a respirar fundo.
de a sentir rasgar-me por dentro. de me fazer beliscar, arranhar, cortar.
de acelerar com ela. de parar o meu mundo com ela.
não sei o que aí vem. mas eu nunca mais vou ser o mesmo. eu mudei.

2017/11/13: red hot chili peppers - wet sand

my shadow side, so amplified
keeps coming back dissatisfied
elementary, son, but it's soul
my love affair with everywhere
was innocent, why do you care?
someone start the car
time to go
you're the best i know

my sunny side has up and died
i'm betting now where we collide
the universe will shift into a low
the travesties that we have seen
are treating you like benzedrine
automatic laughter from a pro

my, what a good day for a walk outside
i'd like to get to know you a little better baby
god knows that i really have tried
my what a good day for a take-out bride
i'd like to say we did it for the better, oh

i saw you there so unaware
those hummingbirds all in your hair
elementary, son, but it's soul
the disrepair of norma jean
could not compare to your routine
balarama beauty going toe-to-toe

my, what a good day for a, let it slide
i'd like to say we did it for the better, oh

i thought about it and i brought it out
i'm motivated by the lack of doubt
i'm consecrated, but i'm not devout
the mother, the father, the daughter, yeah

right on the verge, just one more dose
i'm traveling from coast to coast
my theory isn't perfect, but it's close
i'm almost there, why should i care?
my heart is hurting when i share
someone open up, let it show

my what a good day for a, walk outside
i'd like to think we did it for the better, oh

i thought about it and i brought it out
i'm motivated by the lack of doubt
i'm consecrated but i'm not devout
the mother, the father, the daughter

oh, you don't form in the wet sand
you don't form at all
oh, you don't form in the wet sand
i do

yeah
you don't form in the wet sand
you don't form at all
oh, you don't form in the wet sand
i do
yeah

2017/10/05: daughter - landfill

throw me in a landfill
don't think about the consequences
throw me in the dirt pit
don't think about the choices that you make
throw me in the water
don't think about the splash i will create
leave me at the altar
knowing all the things you just escaped

push me out to sea
on a little boat that you made
out of the evergreen that you helped your father cut away
leave me on the tracks
to wait until the morning train arrives
don't you dare look back
walk away
catch up with the sunrise

'cause this is torturous electricity
between both of us and this is
dangerous 'cause i want you so much
but i hate your guts
i hate you

so leave me in the cold
wait until the snow covers me up
so i cannot move
so i'm just embedded in the frost
then leave me in the rain
wait until my clothes cling to my frame
wipe away your tear stains
thought you said you didn't feel pain

well this is torturous electricity
between both of us and this is
dangerous, 'cause i want you so much
but i hate your guts. i want you so much
but i hate your guts.
well this is torturous
electricity between both of us
and this is dangerous 'cause i want you so much
but i hate your guts
i want you so much but i hate your guts

2017/08/01: daughter - no care

no one asks me for dances because i only know how to flail
i always hit like i'm drowning, dead arms around him
i'd rather stand still, hold tightly to the walls
no care, no care in the world
no care, no care in the world
i don't care, i don't care anymore
i don't care, i don't care
love you in a panic because i prefer to sit on fences
spit-kissing on my sickbed
i'm not searching for replacements
but we are like broken instruments
twisted up and wheezing out the runnels
sleepless folks watching light grow
through their early morning windows
i don't care, i don't care anymore
i don't care, i don't care
oh, i'm too drunk to fight, hurlings curses at your surface
because i'm aware, because it hurts that i'm in love again
and you have kissed my neck so your arguments are insane
fighting over the way something was said
well, i'm still here like a cheap threat
no care, no care in the world
no care, no care in the world
i don't care, i don't care anymore
i don't care, i don't care
oh, there has only been one time where we fucked
and i felt like a bad memory
like my spine was a reminder of her
and you said that you felt sick
i was so heavy hearted, lying side-on with you afterwards
how i wanted you to promise we would only make
how i wanted you to promise we would only make
how i wanted you to promise we would only make love
but my mouth felt like i was choking, broken glass
so i just slept it off
you see, my mouth felt like it could talk the end of us
so i just slept it off, slept it off
no care, no care in the world
no care, no care
i don't care, i don't care anymore
i don't care, i don't care
ah, i'm too drunk to fight
i only wanted you to promise me we would only ever make love
but my mouth felt like i was choking, broken glass
so i just slept it off
wanted you to promise me we would only ever make
wanted you to promise me we would only ever make love

2017/07/09: arcade fire - creature comfort

2017/06/25: mão morta - fazer de morto

para fazer de morto
basta só no chão
e esticar o corpo
e estender o corpo
para fazer de morto

2017/06/03: radiohead - i promise

"
i won't run away no more, i promise
even when i get bored, i promise
even when you lock me out, i promise
i say my prayers every night, i promise

i don't wish that i'm spread, i promise
the tantrums and the chilling chats, i promise

even when the ship is wrecked, i promise
tie me to the rotten deck, i promise

i won't run away no more, i promise
even when i get bored, i promise

even when the ship is wrecked, i promise
tie me to the rotten deck, i promise

i won't run away no more, i promise

"

2017/03/30: jarryd james - do you remember

"
when did we lose our way?
easier to let it go
so many, can't tell anybody
harder to let you know

call me when you made up your mind
but you won't
caught up in the way that you played my heart
only love could ever hit this hard

oh, don't be scared about it
don't forget it was real
do you remember the way it made you feel?
do you remember the things it let you feel?

how do i make you stay?
when it's easier to let you go
nobody know what we know about it
no one needs to know

call me when you made up your mind
but you won't
caught up in the way that you played my heart
only love could ever hit this hard

oh, don't be scared about it
don't forget it was real
do you remember the way it made you feel?
do you remember the things it let you feel?

when you love to your limit
you gave all you're given
who you gonna pray to when you're there
will you find out that there ain't no other love
no other love for you

oh, don't be scared about it
don't forget it was real
do you remember the way it made you feel?
do you remember the things it let you feel?

oh, when you think about it
do you remember me?
do you remember the way it made you feel?
do you remember the things it let you feel?
"

2017/03/28: the chemical brothers ft. beck - wide open

"
i'm wide open
but don't i please you anymore?
you're slipping away from me
you're drifting away from me

i'm wide open
but don't i please you anymore?
you're slipping away from me
you're slipping away from me

slow me down
it's getting away from me
it's getting away from me
it's getting away from me

slow me down
it's getting away from me
it's getting away from me
it's getting away from me

i'm wide open
but i couldn't see it anymore
you're drifting away from me
you're slipping away from me

i'm wide open
i'm wide open
i'm wide open

one day just gonna see me
look back and forth from the ceiling
(i'm wide open) some day love's gonna hurt me
turn back and soon i'll believe it

slow me down
it's getting away from me
it's getting away from me
it's getting away from me

slow me down
it's getting away from me
it's getting away from me
it's getting away from me

i'm wide open
i'm wide open

slow me down
it's getting away from me
it's getting away from me
it's getting away from me
"

2017/03/26: about Paris

"
taking pictures all the time turns you into an observer. it automatically takes you out of the moment... for our trip to venice i wanted to be in the moment, with jack. but, instead of kissing on the gondola, jack took 48 pictures on the gondola... instead of holding hands walking across piazza san marco, jack took 72 pictures of piazza san marco.
"

"
it always fascinated me how people go from loving you madly to nothing at all, nothing. it hurts so much. when i feel someone is going to leave me, i have a tendency to break up first before i get to hear the whole thing. here it is. one more, one less. another wasted love story. i really love this one. when i think that its over, that i'll never see him again like this... well yes, i'll bump into him, we'll meet our new boyfriend and girlfriend, act as if we had never been together, then we'll slowly think of each other less and less until we forget each other completely. almost. always the same for me. break up, break down. drunk up, fool around. meet one guy, then another, fuck around. forget the one and only. then after a few months of total emptiness start again to look for true love, desperately look everywhere and after two years of loneliness meet a new love and swear it is the one, until that one is gone as well. there's a moment in life where you can't recover any more from another break-up. and even if this person bugs you sixty percent of the time, well you still can't live without him. and even if he wakes you up every day by sneezing right in your face, well you love his sneezes more than anyone else's kisses.
"

2017/03/20: sufjan stevens - should have known better

"
i should have known better
to see what i could see
my black shroud
holding down my feelings
a pillar for my enemies

i should have wrote a letter
and grieve what i happen to grieve
my black shroud
i never trust my feelings
i waited for the remedy

when i was three, three maybe four
she left us at that video store
be my rest, be my fantasy
be my rest, be my fantasy

i'm light as a feather
i'm bright as the oregon breeze
my black shroud
frightened by my feelings
i only wanna be a relief

no, i'm not a go-getter
the demon had a spell on me
my black shroud
captain of my feelings
the only thing i wanna believe

when i was three, and free to explore
i saw her face on the back of the door
be my rest, be my fantasy
be my rest, be my fantasy

i should have known better
nothing can be changed
the past is still the past
the bridge to nowhere
i should have wrote a letter
explaining what i feel, that empty feeling

don't back down, concentrate on seeing
the breakers in the bar, the neighbor's greeting
my brother had a daughter
the beauty that she brings, illumination

don't back down, there is nothing left
the breakers in the bar, no reason to live
i'm a fool in the fetter
rose of aaron's beard, where you can reach me

don't back down, nothing can be changed
cantilever bridge, the drunken sailor
my brother had a daughter
the beauty that she brings, illumination
"

2017/03/13: benjamin clementine - i won't complain

"
it's a wonderful life, it's a wonderful life
traversed in tears from the heavens
my heart is a mellow drum, a mellow drum in fact
set alight by echoes of pain 24-7, 24-7

i dream, i smile, i walk, i cry
i dream, i smile, i walk, i cry

you might not say that its a wonderful world
and it's a wonderful life
and it's a wonderful day
just as yesterday

but i won't complain
no i won't complain
though my good days are far gone
they will surely come back one morn
so i won't complain, no, no

my mind is a mirror, a reflection only known to me
and for those who hate me, the more you hate me
the more you help me
and for those who love me, the more you love me
the more you hurt me

when i go to bed in the night
i see some children in the light
fighting unknown shadows behind my mother's back
and although i don't understand
my dreams i know somewhere
there is hope, theres is hope, somewhere, there is hope

i dream, i smile, i walk, i cry
i dream, i smile, i walk, i cry

you might not say that its a wonderful world
and it's a wonderful life
and it's a wonderful day
just as yesterday

but i won't complain
i won't complain no, no
no, no, no, no, no
no, no, no, no, no, i won't complain, no i won't complain

though my good days are far gone
"

2017/02/06: arcade fire - empty room

"
said your name, in an empty room
said your name, in an empty room
something i would never do

said your name, in an empty room
said your name, in an empty room
something i would never do

i'm alone again

when I'm by myself
i can be myself
and my life is coming
but I don't know when

you were burning out, you're black and gray
you were burning out, you're black and gray
something I would never say

i'm alone again

when I'm by myself
i can be myself
and my life is coming
but I don't know when

toute ma vie, est avec toi
toute ma vie, est avec toi
moi j'attends, toi tu pars

toute ma vie, est avec toi
toute ma vie, est avec toi
moi j'attends, toi tu pars
"

2017/01/28: megadeth - dread and the fugitive mind

"
let me introduce myself I'm a social disease
i've come for your wealth leave you on your knees
no time for feeling sorry, I got here on my own
i won't ask for mercy, I choose to walk alone

what's yours is mine and what's mine is mine too
if you shake my hand better count your fingers

what if I do get caught? What if there is no judgment?
if I'm right I lose nothing, if you're right I lose it all
i ought to get caught because I'm doing something wicked
i'm guilty haunted by my fear and the only consequences
are Dread and the Fugitive Mind

you built walls to protect you so no one will infect you
pursued by those out there that vanish in thin air
come a long way to find what you really left behind
you don't know when the end is but it's coming fast

what's yours is mine and what's mine is mine too
if you shake my hand better count your fingers

what if I do get caught? What if there is no judgment?
if I'm right I lose nothing, if you're right I lose it all
i ought to get caught because I'm doing something wicked
i'm guilty haunted by my fear and the only consequences
are dread and the fugitive mind
"

2017/01/01: step one

We need a witness to our lives.
There's a billion people on the planet...
I mean, what does any one life really mean?
But in a marriage, you're promising to care about everything. The good things, the bad things, the terrible things, the mundane things... all of it, all of the time, every day.
You're saying 'Your life will not go unnoticed because I will notice it. Your life will not go un-witnessed because I will be your witness'."