2017/03/26: about Paris

"
taking pictures all the time turns you into an observer. it automatically takes you out of the moment... for our trip to venice i wanted to be in the moment, with jack. but, instead of kissing on the gondola, jack took 48 pictures on the gondola... instead of holding hands walking across piazza san marco, jack took 72 pictures of piazza san marco.
"

"
it always fascinated me how people go from loving you madly to nothing at all, nothing. it hurts so much. when i feel someone is going to leave me, i have a tendency to break up first before i get to hear the whole thing. here it is. one more, one less. another wasted love story. i really love this one. when i think that its over, that i'll never see him again like this... well yes, i'll bump into him, we'll meet our new boyfriend and girlfriend, act as if we had never been together, then we'll slowly think of each other less and less until we forget each other completely. almost. always the same for me. break up, break down. drunk up, fool around. meet one guy, then another, fuck around. forget the one and only. then after a few months of total emptiness start again to look for true love, desperately look everywhere and after two years of loneliness meet a new love and swear it is the one, until that one is gone as well. there's a moment in life where you can't recover any more from another break-up. and even if this person bugs you sixty percent of the time, well you still can't live without him. and even if he wakes you up every day by sneezing right in your face, well you love his sneezes more than anyone else's kisses.
"

2017/03/20: sufjan stevens - should have known better

"
i should have known better
to see what i could see
my black shroud
holding down my feelings
a pillar for my enemies

i should have wrote a letter
and grieve what i happen to grieve
my black shroud
i never trust my feelings
i waited for the remedy

when i was three, three maybe four
she left us at that video store
be my rest, be my fantasy
be my rest, be my fantasy

i'm light as a feather
i'm bright as the oregon breeze
my black shroud
frightened by my feelings
i only wanna be a relief

no, i'm not a go-getter
the demon had a spell on me
my black shroud
captain of my feelings
the only thing i wanna believe

when i was three, and free to explore
i saw her face on the back of the door
be my rest, be my fantasy
be my rest, be my fantasy

i should have known better
nothing can be changed
the past is still the past
the bridge to nowhere
i should have wrote a letter
explaining what i feel, that empty feeling

don't back down, concentrate on seeing
the breakers in the bar, the neighbor's greeting
my brother had a daughter
the beauty that she brings, illumination

don't back down, there is nothing left
the breakers in the bar, no reason to live
i'm a fool in the fetter
rose of aaron's beard, where you can reach me

don't back down, nothing can be changed
cantilever bridge, the drunken sailor
my brother had a daughter
the beauty that she brings, illumination
"

2017/03/13: benjamin clementine - i won't complain

"
it's a wonderful life, it's a wonderful life
traversed in tears from the heavens
my heart is a mellow drum, a mellow drum in fact
set alight by echoes of pain 24-7, 24-7

i dream, i smile, i walk, i cry
i dream, i smile, i walk, i cry

you might not say that its a wonderful world
and it's a wonderful life
and it's a wonderful day
just as yesterday

but i won't complain
no i won't complain
though my good days are far gone
they will surely come back one morn
so i won't complain, no, no

my mind is a mirror, a reflection only known to me
and for those who hate me, the more you hate me
the more you help me
and for those who love me, the more you love me
the more you hurt me

when i go to bed in the night
i see some children in the light
fighting unknown shadows behind my mother's back
and although i don't understand
my dreams i know somewhere
there is hope, theres is hope, somewhere, there is hope

i dream, i smile, i walk, i cry
i dream, i smile, i walk, i cry

you might not say that its a wonderful world
and it's a wonderful life
and it's a wonderful day
just as yesterday

but i won't complain
i won't complain no, no
no, no, no, no, no
no, no, no, no, no, i won't complain, no i won't complain

though my good days are far gone
"

2017/02/06: arcade fire - empty room

"
said your name, in an empty room
said your name, in an empty room
something i would never do

said your name, in an empty room
said your name, in an empty room
something i would never do

i'm alone again

when I'm by myself
i can be myself
and my life is coming
but I don't know when

you were burning out, you're black and gray
you were burning out, you're black and gray
something I would never say

i'm alone again

when I'm by myself
i can be myself
and my life is coming
but I don't know when

toute ma vie, est avec toi
toute ma vie, est avec toi
moi j'attends, toi tu pars

toute ma vie, est avec toi
toute ma vie, est avec toi
moi j'attends, toi tu pars
"

2017/01/28: megadeth - dread and the fugitive mind

"
let me introduce myself I'm a social disease
i've come for your wealth leave you on your knees
no time for feeling sorry, I got here on my own
i won't ask for mercy, I choose to walk alone

what's yours is mine and what's mine is mine too
if you shake my hand better count your fingers

what if I do get caught? What if there is no judgment?
if I'm right I lose nothing, if you're right I lose it all
i ought to get caught because I'm doing something wicked
i'm guilty haunted by my fear and the only consequences
are Dread and the Fugitive Mind

you built walls to protect you so no one will infect you
pursued by those out there that vanish in thin air
come a long way to find what you really left behind
you don't know when the end is but it's coming fast

what's yours is mine and what's mine is mine too
if you shake my hand better count your fingers

what if I do get caught? What if there is no judgment?
if I'm right I lose nothing, if you're right I lose it all
i ought to get caught because I'm doing something wicked
i'm guilty haunted by my fear and the only consequences
are dread and the fugitive mind
"

2017/01/01: step one

We need a witness to our lives.
There's a billion people on the planet...
I mean, what does any one life really mean?
But in a marriage, you're promising to care about everything. The good things, the bad things, the terrible things, the mundane things... all of it, all of the time, every day.
You're saying 'Your life will not go unnoticed because I will notice it. Your life will not go un-witnessed because I will be your witness'."

2016/12/31: threshold

threshold (ˈθrɛʃəʊld; ˈθrɛʃˌhəʊld)
n
1. (Building) Also called: doorsill a sill, esp one made of stone or hardwood, placed at a doorway
2. any doorway or entrance
3. the starting point of an experience, event, or venture: on the threshold of manhood.
4. (Psychology) psychol the strength at which a stimulus is just perceived: the threshold of consciousness. Compare absolute threshold, difference threshold
5.
a. a level or point at which something would happen, would cease to happen, or would take effect, become true, etc
b. (as modifier): threshold price; threshold effect.
6. (General Physics)
a. the minimum intensity or value of a signal, etc, that will produce a response or specified effect: a frequency threshold.
b. (as modifier): a threshold current.
7. (Industrial Relations & HR Terms) (modifier) designating or relating to a pay agreement, clause, etc, that raises wages to compensate for increases in the cost of living

2016/12/29: gene kelly - singing in the rain

gene kelly - singing in the rain

2016/12/04: gotye - hearts a mess

"
pick apart
the pieces of your heart
and let me peer inside
let me in
where only your thoughts have been
let me occupy your mind
as you do mine

your heart's a mess
you won't admit to it
it makes no sense
but I'm desperate to connect
you can't live like this

you have lost
(too much love)
to fear, doubt and distrust
(it's not enough)
you just threw away the key
to your heart

you don't get burned
('cause nothing gets through)
it makes it easier
(easier on you)
but that much more difficult for me
to make you see…

love ain't fair
so there you are
my love

your heart's a mess
you won't admit to it
it makes no sense
but I'm desperate to connect
and you, you can't live like this

your heart's a mess
you won't admit to it
it makes no sense
but I'm desperate to connect
and you can't live like this

love ain't safe
you won't get hurt if you stay chaste
so you can wait
but I don't wanna waste my love
"